I REALLY FAIL

I REALLY DUN KNOW WAD IS ON MY MIND NOW....

i really wan to cry as loud as i can.....

but.....

i cant.....

i wan to know who i am now.....

i really cant understand myself......

i wan to know wad is happen to me....

can any1 tell me.....

thx to any1 who 安慰 me today.....

sorry to being too emo.....

i really wan to cry it out.....

but i know tht i must be strong.....

i cant cry in front of u all.....

in my car when i drive back.....

still thinking about her.....

i really being stun until forget the red light turn green.....

reach home.....

sitting on the bed....

i didnt even know wad should i do.....

on msn....

i dun even dare to talk to any1.....

on facebook.....

nothing tht i interested.....

looking at my new phone which my mom bought for me.....

i hve not even a happy feeling.....

WHY

am losing my everything?

maybe i will losing a friendship.....

i lost my aim of life.....

but i know.....

i must search it back.....

i must continue my journey.....

i must continue to fullfill my final dream.......

i swear to myself.....

i will not even drop a tear.....

NOT AT ALL AFTER TODAY......

i will be strong.....

to face everything.....

including her....